I have been thinking a lot about my life and where i am currently. Been reflecting more on how the year has progressed, now that it’s November. This has been one of the toughest yet quite accomplished year i have had. I did graduate, got a job that i love, my blog has grown. What more could i ask for? Yet i still feel like there has been something that’s been missing.
If you keep close attention to my blog, you might have noticed that i haven’t been writing as much as i did. It has been quite challenging for me to seat and start writing. Even as i am typing out this post, i am struggling to come up with a nice way of passing out this message. I remember of a time when seating behind a laptop/computer and typing away my thoughts brought me so much joy. I used to get lost in it, that everything else became non-existent. To be honest i haven’t had such a moment in quite a while. Recently, writing has felt more like a chore than something i love to do.
When i started blogging [i think i have mentioned this before], i created this space for me to escape. I wrote simply to pour out my thoughts not because i had to meet a schedule or that i needed to maintain consistency not to chase away my readers. I wrote about things that i felt passionate about. Unfortunately, slowly by slowly i started to drift away from that.
When i decided to make blogging a serious thing, my focus shifted from my vision for this blog which was and is to impact millennial like me with my life story. I began to focus on how to grow my following, how to have beautiful pictures on the blog, how to make sure my Instagram aesthetics are attractive to gain me more following. It stopped being about my story it became about the numbers. I remember i recently did a post where i was talking about it not being about the numbers but the content, what i didn’t realize is that i was slowly treading towards that direction.
My main reason for doing this post was to be honest with you as my reader and to let you in on my struggle. It hasn’t been easy running this blog. It has felt like i have been having two full time jobs. And there is as much that i give to both my full time job and this space. I want to get back to the place where i enjoyed to write. To the place that pouring out my thoughts on this page brought me more joy than stress. I want to get my inspiration back, and let my creative juices flow once again. I want to put out great content not half-hearted stories.
With that said and done, i will be taking a much needed break from the blog. I will use this time to get back to my love for writing. I will use it to find my inspiration and creativity. I will indulge in more reading, more specific, books that stimulate my thinking process, that motivate and most importantly inspire.
I am planning to get back on the blog beginning on next year. This is not goodbye but see you later. I appreciate each and everyone of you that takes the time to read my posts. I promise that the content will be much fresher and engaging. And for anyone who is at a point of stagnation, you feel like what you once loved isn’t giving you the same feeling. It is ok to take some time off to rejuvenate.You might be surprised by what that time does.
That’s all from me for now, till later.